“the goal is not to die”

Mar. 29, 2023

(TW: suic!de related talk) I saw a tiktok the other day and one quote really resonated with me, so I wanted to share:

“You are allowed to choose the lesser of two evils. Bad coping mechanisms are better than death. And the goal is not to die

THE. GOAL. IS. NOT. TO. DIE.”

There is so much I want to say about this quote but for now, let’s just talk about this:

When I was in the darkest place I’ve ever been mentally, I was so hard on myself, constantly overwhelmed by everything, I just wanted to disappear. But I knew I couldn’t, I knew I had to live this life and see it through. That’s when I realized that the only thing that was important from that moment forward was making sure I wanted to be alive. I needed to fall in love with life again. I stopped putting so much pressure on myself, I changed my major, and I started doing things that I genuinely wanted to do and not just what I thought I was “supposed” to do. And over time I started enjoying life more and more.

… what started as “the goal is not to die” has turned into “my only goal in life is to be happy and love this little life that I live”

I just wanted to share this in case anyone reading this is where I was at one point. I hope this can speak to you the way it did to me, and that you push everything else aside for a little while to focus on being happy. Other things can wait, you can’t. School will always be there, there will be other opportunities in the future, and the world will still turn if you need to take a step back <3

(tiktok @narcissistsappho)